What's up, January!

Dear Rose,

  Well, this is YSTCM audition month. I am trying to stay as calm as possible, but I know it will come to a point where I can't, let's not think. Anxiousness and fear will bring no good, whereas to fear a fear is a trap!

  I've been taking lessons from giants - Marques and Brett since October 2015 while preparing myself for the audition. I am very grateful to have started early. I figured out the purpose of doing so is to make music, again I should remind myself, not just audition. I sound bad at times, slightly better at times, but I do believe it's all part of the process leading myself to turning great. Becoming great is a promise.

  Continue to doubt is good, because this is is where questions formed, eventually it leads us to solutions when we are trapped or lost. Choose the one your heart desires, make your brain commits. No one can tell it's right or wrong, because I found the universe has created its subjective law – relativity within its infinity. So whatever you do, anything, there must be a reason which relates to another.

  Desperately, I want to explore the unknown and beauty within arts in variety forms: dance, paintings, calligraphy, photography, movie, cultures, traveling, simplicity, language, writing and etc. Tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow, what do we chase by spending all the limited years we have? In stead of getting good job, money, marriage, raising children, work, go to school, etc., what does luxurious mean to you?

  I am 20 going on 21. Adulthood. Should I still call myself a seedling or rose? I realized, things never get easy, in fact people get stronger.