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Dear Rosé,

I think we need to seek help. 

I am emotionally overwhelmed, again. 

I remember this happened during high school years when I got so stressed up about everything, I did not know what to do. I had the thought of suicide at that time. I felt I was alone and no one could understand what I was going through. 

Overwhelmed. 

I wish my emotions can go away. I do not know what triggers these feelings, I push people away, I want to escape from my own thoughts. 

Probably the wedding, probably too many uncertainties, insecurities, unresolved problems, arguments, doubts, etc. the world is moving too fast, everybody is moving ahead of me ...

What should I do and where should I go ...

I want to find the root of all my problems ...

No matter how hard I try to set boundaries with people

Being defensive

Ignoring their voices

It still hurts.

Maybe I need advices

I need someone to stand by me

I need shelter 

Hide away from the noisy world.

Dear my future self,

I really hope we won't have to go through this again

Let's break the generation curse, it should end here with us. 

I wish one day we can embrace love, healthy relationships with people and ourself. We can see the brighter side of the world. 

//

- Communicating aloud with your inner child -

If you feel strained or upset, comfort your reflection. Speak words you would want to hear from someone you love. Speak words you never heard as a child but desperately needed to hear. Say exactly what your inner child needs to hear right now. 

It's okay, little Wei, I got your back. I spend time listening to you and feel you right now. 

I will always hold your hand, we don't have to rush through things, take it one step at a time.

I wish you can sleep well today because it's raining outside and I am putting the songs you love to hear.

Wise men say

Only fools rush in

But I can't help falling in love with you

Shall I stay?

Would it be a sin

For I can't help falling in love with you.