焦虑

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其实我目前最担心的 是明年会不会被编到别班去
这不能怪谁 只能怪自己不够努力 成绩才会那么烂
要是真的被分到别班那也只好接受安排 但真的会很舍不得班上的同学

然后我很担心的是明年的SPM考试，看到考生们紧张我也跟着紧张
因为明年的这个时候我也会和他们一样 站上战场 打一场关系到人生将来的重要战争
要是我准备不足考砸的话人生很可能会变得很坎坷 压力大呀

在迎战的考生们加油啊，祝你们一切顺利

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