Dear Rosé,

Dear Rosé, I think we need to seek help.  I am emotionally overwhelmed, again.  I remember this happened during high school years when I got so stressed up about everything, I did not know what to do. I had the thought of suicide at that time. I felt I was alone and no one could understand what I was going through.  Overwhelmed.  I wish my emotions can go away. I do not know what triggers these feelings, I push people away, I want to escape from my own thoughts.  Probably the wedding, probably too many uncertainties, insecurities, unresolved problems, arguments, doubts, etc. the world is moving too fast, everybody is moving ahead of me ... What should I do and where should I go ... I want to find the root of all my problems ... No matter how hard I try to set boundaries with people Being defensive Ignoring their voices It still hurts. Maybe I need advices I need someone to stand by me I need shelter  Hide away from the noisy world. Dear my future self, I really hope we won't have t

Dear Rosé, 今年一家人在Lukut温馨地度过农历新年。 烟火很灿烂 也放了很久 当下很满足 因为可以和家人在一起欣赏 很希望 时间可以永远停留在这一刻 人生不要有改变。 // 聚少离多的感觉 我从来都不喜欢 用我的方式在抗拒 我也是大人了 才明白 大人们的牺牲 紧紧地握住我的手 不只是大人学不会放手 我们也想回家 永远当他们任性又赖皮的小孩。 当你们一直问我什么时候会离开这里 我不知道 我还在逃避 我知道自己在怕 会离你们太远 从昨天 到今天 还有明天 感谢老天让你们陪在我身边 爱的心 痛的心 等待的心 因为有你们的拥抱我很放心 我知道换做是以前的我 肯定马上爆哭给你看 但是我知道 我现在哭 只会让担心我的人更加担心我 更怕难得愿意踏出舒适圈的自己 又再往回家的路逃走。 要为自己的选择负责 有婚约的人 要为新的家人也负责。 曾想过 没有遇到适合的人 可以陪在家人身边 踏实地照顾他们的后半辈子 当你老了 眼眉低垂 灯火昏黄不定 风吹过来 你的消息 这就是我心里的歌 阿姨说 记得要常常回去看外婆 因为我去了国外就很难见到了 最近她老得更快了 我们不长大外婆是不是就不会老了？ Blackie 你也要一直健健康康陪外婆哦 妈妈说你最乖了 我不乖 最爱和大人顶嘴了 // 家人 和 烟花美景 我希望每一年都可以看得到。

 Dear Rose, 🛫 Munich, Germany Our LDR started when he needed to further his studies in Germany and Munich is where he spent most of his time as a student. And he used to write postcards to me telling the places that he wished I could see. And this trip to Germany was like a walk down memory lane. First flight together Pretzel is 💓 Christmas market, Christmas tree, beautiful churches, mulled wine, etc. His campus 🚅 Freiburg We took the deutsche bahn ("delay" bahn) to Freiburg to meet our friend who is now working at a musical instrument store. We had lunch together, went for a walk at the nearby Christmas market before testing trombones at the store. I can tell they miss each other very much. This was my first time meeting this special friend of ours but already felt like we known each other for some time. He has been the supportive friend during the tough time in our LDR. Did not manage to eat at his favourite Italian restaurant but this one was good too! Modern ballet Gis