Oliver, Oliver! Where Is Love?
Dear Rose,
Time has gone so quickly, half of the year has passed. I do not know how should I express myself towards you, but I know there are moments I wanted you so badly - I need answers from you.
Inner conversations never stop me from questioning, perhaps reading in space or keeping words in silence would help to chase all miseries away, I just do not know how until -
Someone walked in to hug a while, rubbing my back like he was going to open up my world to sunshine and bear the heavy soul in me. I held back those unreliable tears as I shall not shelter myself ... but from what? From all the confusions I have in me?
Bare!
What's wrong to shed tears or feel bare ... if those are shoulders I should rely on? How much danger or trust it takes to breakthrough? I know the loss, this is not easy as business.
I shelter myself from putting trust on promises, relationship, intimacy, humanity or even on myself etc., overwhelming emotions and doubts have been building solid walls. At times I hardly see through the dim of possibilities where the unknown lies, until -
I discovered the shattered map leading to nowhere but endless long paths.
Stop!
Take a break, breathe deeply, can't you smell the wildflowers ahead?
Since question never has full stop, let it be.
Life has everything, but everything is moving. Every decision, choices, mindset, people and places will continue to trigger our lives, don't you worry because everything will soon be gone along these short paths of living.
EVERYTHING JAPANESE - Klpac Symphonic Band
My first concert performance with the Klpac Symphonic Band. It was a Japanese composers series project in collaboration with the Tshung Tsin Wind Symphony, Sabah, under the batons of conductors Cheryl Mah (klpac symphonic band resident conductor), Ho Chee Kiang (Tshung Tsin Wind Symphony band director), Japanese composers - Satoshi Yagisawa and Kazuyasu Kaminaga.
Time has gone so quickly, half of the year has passed. I do not know how should I express myself towards you, but I know there are moments I wanted you so badly - I need answers from you.
Inner conversations never stop me from questioning, perhaps reading in space or keeping words in silence would help to chase all miseries away, I just do not know how until -
Someone walked in to hug a while, rubbing my back like he was going to open up my world to sunshine and bear the heavy soul in me. I held back those unreliable tears as I shall not shelter myself ... but from what? From all the confusions I have in me?
Bare!
What's wrong to shed tears or feel bare ... if those are shoulders I should rely on? How much danger or trust it takes to breakthrough? I know the loss, this is not easy as business.
I shelter myself from putting trust on promises, relationship, intimacy, humanity or even on myself etc., overwhelming emotions and doubts have been building solid walls. At times I hardly see through the dim of possibilities where the unknown lies, until -
I discovered the shattered map leading to nowhere but endless long paths.
Stop!
Take a break, breathe deeply, can't you smell the wildflowers ahead?
Since question never has full stop, let it be.
Life has everything, but everything is moving. Every decision, choices, mindset, people and places will continue to trigger our lives, don't you worry because everything will soon be gone along these short paths of living.
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EVERYTHING JAPANESE - Klpac Symphonic Band
My first concert performance with the Klpac Symphonic Band. It was a Japanese composers series project in collaboration with the Tshung Tsin Wind Symphony, Sabah, under the batons of conductors Cheryl Mah (klpac symphonic band resident conductor), Ho Chee Kiang (Tshung Tsin Wind Symphony band director), Japanese composers - Satoshi Yagisawa and Kazuyasu Kaminaga.
Taken by my friend, Tang Chun Cheuh, he is a very passionate photographer.
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Oliver! Musical @ The International School at Parkcity
My first musical experience was a great pleasure! We were very impressed by the group of young kids' talent and their efforts on making this musical project a great success, of course we need to thank the department and team for working extremely hard to make this possible.
" Hey sir, I want some more! "
My new friends - Paul, Edwin, Alex and Mo Moh. I learned lots of things from these people, very kind, warmth and funny. Different people tell their own stories, I am glad to have shared and now being a portion of them. My favorite stories are told by people who have found and lost, but still never hesitate to love, thank you my friends, you're the sparks!
When Alex shared about relationship and life, he has got his happy philosophy -
" It's just like your instrument, sometimes you sound great, sometimes you feel like want to throw it off ... life is not meant to be perfect. Life is not the chairs you arranged so neatly! "
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