Dear Rosé,

Dear Rose,   I am currently reading the 'Conversations With Gods' by Neale Donald Walsch. Thank my friend for recommending the book to me perfectly on the right timing. Full of messages beyond words can tell. Here's portion of what God said: 'Let's exchange the word  talk  with the word  communicate.  It's a much better word, a much fuller, more accurate one. When we speak to each other - Me to you, you to Me, we are immediately constricted by the unbelievable limitation of words alone. In fact, rarely do I do so. My most common form of communication is through  feelings .' 'Feeling is the language of the soul -    If you want to know what's true for you about something, look to how you're feeling about it.   Feelings are sometimes difficult to discover - and often even more difficult to acknowledge. Yet hidden in your deepest feelings is you highest truth .' 'I also communicate with thought. ... Although feelings and tho

Dear Rose,   Time has gone so quickly, half of the year has passed. I do not know how should I express myself towards you, but I know there are moments I wanted you so badly - I need answers from you.   Inner conversations never stop me from questioning, perhaps reading in space or keeping words in silence would help to chase all miseries away, I just do not know how until -   Someone walked in to hug a while, rubbing my back like he was going to open up my world to sunshine and bear the heavy soul in me. I held back those unreliable tears as I shall not shelter myself ... but from what? From all the confusions I have in me?   Bare!   What's wrong to shed tears or feel bare ... if those are shoulders I should rely on? How much danger or trust it takes to breakthrough? I know the loss, this is not easy as business.   I shelter myself from putting trust on promises, relationship, intimacy, humanity or even on myself etc., overwhelming emotions and doubts have been building

Dear Rose, It has been a month I have not write to you. People have been asking me about my doing recently, I have no idea either. I think I should really think of furthering my study, like seriously think of a university other than my very first choice. I have probably three months time. Here comes to a stage where I am not giving up, but I start to accept the choices instead of losing hope. I want to go to the places I have never been, where I can feel free to find my own strength. Not just another expectation and comparison. Where do you see yourself in 10 years? I consistently ask myself - again I know that I am reaching out for it. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It has been a month I have not talk to you, but you should realize that I am different now. I was so in love with life being alone, observing every corner of it with the pair of curious eyes, hearing all the songs, symphony and poetr